I’d like to think I am always prepared, always ready for anything. Well ready enough to get a mini toolkit out my handbag in times of emergency. The kind of lady that brought the black pen to the government office and also remembered the extra ID photo. I must say, I was that on a good day!
I’ve noticed that I have not always been prepared… for life. I could not prepare for every little thing I thought of. I would be too busy all the time. I have a lot of sympathy for some people that struggle with anxiety problems, I could just imagine their stress.
I am just not prepared for everything, even if I could maybe these twists in life’s road is what keeps us sane. I had clear plans of of a few things in my life and in a course of a few days, a few moments, seconds … it all changed. I am still happy where I am going, it just so scary knowing it can change again. So quickly. The solace that I found in those moments or in those days is this…
I was not prepared and it all turned out OK. Life did not end as I know it. I just realized, sometimes your worst fears can come true, and you survive. I have survived, and I will continue to survive.
I am not ready for my heart and mind changing course on the things I thought I knew for sure, I am not ready for my foundations to be shaken.
I am not ready for everything that could possibly go wrong, but I will be OK… and so will you.